Arghhh...

To Vicki Icki Yucki

First i found out that you asked CMS to stop contact with me cause I'm

an Indian... Now i found out that it's because you think I'm the type of guy that use a

girl then dump her... I don't know why you girls like to make that kinda assumptions, I'd

probably think it's also because I'm an Indian... Damn you racist $%^&.. Lucky you are 

a girl.. If guy, GG la u... I wanted to find you and scold you, but what's the point, I'm 

moving on.. It's not worth it... 
Oh ya, a little advice for you, don't say something like that about others, not everyone
gonna be like me ignore it when they find out..
P.S. I don't know if it's true or not.. If it is, you lose my respect for you.. If it's not sorry!

You're still there

I found myself no choice but to move on...

Some of my friends already asking me to find other girl,

but i won't.. You are still on my mind and heart...

I'll wait for time to find me one, till then i will start to focus on my studies..

My college starts Jan most probably, so in the meantime i wanna work part-time..

I need something to keep me distracted... DOTA, Futsal & Anime not working..

Work should be it...

I read your blog.. You gonna walk your dog everyday with Vicki? Which means i will

see you most of the time.. At some point i decided not to go to PJS9 because of that, 

but when think about Futsal, PJS9 is our ground so i have no choice but to go.. There's

still PJS7 futsal court but i dont like it... Too many of em, uncivilised...

Now where am i gonna work? ...

Giving Up.

<3 CMS.
I'm sorry for all the bad things i have done to you. Please forgive me if i hurt you.

I wanted to be with you. But it never will happen. Now i just want to be your friend

but even that you seem not to allow. I know it's because you want me to give up.

I know you're helping. I have my dignity still, so, sorry, i won't disturb you anymore.

After all it's what you wanted. I really hope you will find me one day.

Hope this is not the end of our friendship.

Goodbye. Take Care.

Love You Still

I cant believe that i said i will move on.

But seriously i don't want to let you go.

My life would suck without you.

I had to give up.

Yet i still hope you will accept me one day.

You were all the things i thought i knew.

You were everything that i always wanted.

And i thought we could be.....

I may be not lucky enough to be with you but I'm lucky enough to be a friend of you.

IF YOU EVER NEED ANYTHING, EVEN WHEN YOU'RE DOWN, PLEASE BARE IN MIND THAT I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. LET ME KNOW JUST ABOUT ANYTHING THAT TROUBLES YOU.

Life is pretty much unpredictable. I may not live long enough but i won't miss out letting you

you know that life is worth living with someone like you around.

wonder why?

To CMS

I wonder why i love you.. I still don't know why... It just happens huh? love.

But im sure i know this, if we never stop chatting that 13days i wouldn't have realise

that i fall in love with you.. And when i realise that, i stoned my heart cause alex was

going for you.. I was so stupid to suggest you to alex without knowing that i will fall

for you.. I still remember the bet that i and alex made before i leave to India..

the bet : alex wins if he win your heart, and i must treat him , if he fails to do so,

i win but i get nothing..

I won...Oh yeah.. The first message that i received when i arrived at the airport is

from you... Damn the feeling i get was ... wow.. 

Then as you know, after you gave me the green light i begin to make you fall for me..

I rushed, got rejected.. Splitted my heart into two... But i didn't give up...

I waited for spm to over, cause i thought you don't wanna have a relationship till spm

over, maybe i was wrong but it was too long.. 

One of the reasons why i said im always on the losing side...

At last, im supposed to go out with you alone, just you and me but it didnt happen..

Instead you invited me to your friend's birthday party..

Your friend that don't like me, of course im reluctant to go but i agreed... 

I know we will never go out together... 

I asked you if you can go out with me alone after spm, but you asked "why i want

to go out with you so badly?" i had to tell you that it's because i love you...

Then you asked me to give up, i didn't want to, i cant..Shattered my heart into pieces..

I still want to try to win your heart for the third time, but i failed the moment i start trying...

You stopped me....

Now we are just friends nothing more... Glad to be able to talk to you still...

Trying to move on...

Only time will heal the pain in my heart..
Only time will tell when you will leave my mind and my heart..

sighs..

You:

"i won't fall for a guy when the feel already faded once"

"give up on me or im not talking to you"

Me:

"i will not stop loving you"

"my heart belongs only to you"

"i had to give up on you because i want to talk to you"

<3 CMS